When Joshua Ryan was five, he accidentally set his family's trailer ablaze. Though he and his mother were able to escape without harm, his two-year-old brother was caught in the fire. He suffered third-degree burns over most of his body.
His parents divorced. He felt an odd combination of guilt and envy towards his brother, who now received a majority of the attention dolled out by his parents and others. The emotional scars from the fire stay with him even today, some 20 years later.
Later, to prove himself to his father and the rest of his family, most of whom had served in the military previously, Ryan enlisted in the National Guard, eventually deploying to both Iraq and Afghanistan during his military career.
As a combat medic, Ryan made a career out of confronting trauma, the most memorable example of which was a time where he helped treat a soldier with a self-inflicted gunshot wound during his first deployment in Iraq.
Hear how Ryan has dealt with his legacy of trauma, the toll it has taken, and the solace he finds in his hope for a future yet seen.
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